We all make mistakes. I wish I could be more self aware when I’m being selfish, but I’m human, and insecure. I can’t see passed my selfish point of view. My ideals are high and most cannot achieve them. I still find myself thinking about you. I think mostly because I never realized how thoughtful of a person you truly were.

One day I was cleaning out a box of papers where I found cards that you got me on Valentine’s day. I never realized until then that they all had apes on them and what it meant until I realized that a stuffed ape was the very first gift that I ever gave you. I felt sad when i realized this because I didn’t realize your intent until after we’ve been broken up for so long. 😦

I also found a keychain that you got me for christmas one year. I don’t know why I never used it until after we broke up. Throwing it away was very difficult for me to do because I felt it signified me of letting go of you. Yes, it did work for the most part, although every once in a while you still pop in my head from time to time. I wonder if you think of me at all. I’m sure you probably d0nt.

*”I drink some wine. I feel mostly okay.”